The most blessed. Who could that be? It’s me.
Why?
Because God gave me a big sister.
Even when I don’t deserve it, He gave me a sister.
I thank God that He allowed me to feel what it’s like having a big sister.
I thank God that He gave me the chance to have someone look after me despite being a naughty little girl.
I thank God that He gave me the chance to meet someone like her as a sister.
I thank God that even when I don’t deserve it, I was born to be her younger sister.
Thank you, Lord, for letting me the experience of having an “Ate”.
I consider every moment with her the best days of my life!
I wouldn’t be sad because I know that even she can’t be physically here, I know inside my heart that she doesn’t want me to cry.
The only thing I can do is miss you.
I miss you and this is for you Pingkai. Happy Five Years in Heaven with Mommy 🙂 I love you always!
Do you remember when we were young wild and free,
All the things we’ve shared together now a memory.
But Why? Why? Why? Where are you now?
You are lost in my eyes, I look back for you twice and I look up the sky.
In the dark night sky, looking way up high, are we staring the same stars?
Catching glimpse of moonlight wishing I could hold on to you so tight.
If only, if only you are beside me, if you call me please call me. I am waiting for you. My heart is, my heart is so lost without you. Learning to smile is so hard no matter how I try. And it’s been so long since you were gone, it’s been so long but the pain remains. My heart that I can’t tame, when I look at you it still hurts the same.
Waking up every morning wondering when will I see you again,
Every night I always pray to dream of you to meet you again.
In my dreams I want to live, cos you are there and you are not here.
Every time I always wish for things to be where they used to be.
But where, where? where are you now?
I cannot hold your hand, I cannot see you near so I look up the sky.
It has been days since I last saw you, your look and your smile we want to pursue.
Look at me, look at me. I cannot believe, that you choose to leave now how will I live.
Half of me died after your last breath, I was gonna wait till you wake up.
But, you gave up now I’m all messed up. Can’t let go of the past, help me I’m trapped
I will wait, I will wait. Because I have faith, faith that we’ll meet whatever takes.
It has been rough, it has been tough, but I will stand up, for you for you, I will stand up.
If only, if only.. I can go to you, just wait for me, wait for me, I will be there soon..
I truly, I truly, won’t cry anymore, you’re beside, beside me.. with me wherever I go…
If only ….